Things that happened Yesterday

It snowed/rained/sleeted here, yesterday. I know that is probably not a big deal for most of you, but for where I live, it is. We have not seen this much snow in quite a few years.
My little sister had called and called saying we should close the studio down and go home, but she tends to over react to the rain, so I did not listen to her. I wish I had, because well . . . you can imagine how surprised I was, when I finally left work, to see that the snow was actually sticking to everything, even the main roads. I wore Capri pants, a black T-Shirt and Crocks to work. Yes, I froze my ass off going home. I tried to get a few pictures of it but it was dark when I left work, and my camera is great but not that great.
I could barely walk to my car the ground was so slushy; it was kind of cool and pretty but very scary. I know I annoyed those driving behind me, when I drove 10mph all the way home, but I could not make myself go any faster. Even driving that slow, I still managed to nearly run off the road. Also, if the fear, that felt while driving in the slippery mess, had not had me so paralyzed, I probably would have thrown up all in my car, because my nerves had me shaking so bad.
My co-worker got a flat tire on his way home, because he really did run off of the road. I feel kind of bad for him, but not too bad because I am not the boss and was not the one who asked him to stay. I would have left earlier, myself, but I had a student, whose mother did not have enough sense to come and get him when the weather turned bad, in the studio that I could not leave.
You would think that considering we do not live in a state that gets any snow, that people would be more conscious of there actions. I could understand peoples nonchalance if I lived in Maine, or somewhere else where it snowed all of the time, but I do not understand it here. We are not trained to drive in this weather. We do not have vehicles that are equipped to be driven in this weather, and we should act like it, but we don’t.
I say this because not only did this child’s mother leave him at my studio until everything outside turned white, but as I was driving home I saw a Domino’s Pizza Delivery car delivering pizza. I cannot speak for other places, but here, those who work for food delivery places normally do have the best vehicles, therefore they have no business being out in such conditions. Not only do I think the person or persons who ordered the pizza was an asswhole, but the store manger of that Domino’s is an asswhole for allowing the employee to make the run and for even staying open once the weather turned bad. It wasn’t as if the weather was that a big surprise.
When I went to work that morning, all that the weather station had called for was rain, but as the day went on we were informed of the upcoming rain/snow/sleet. And like I said, I would not have been dumb enough to be out in it if I had not been responsible for another person. I guess I could have taken the poor child home myself, but I would have taken the chance of being in some kind of accident and his parents would have sued me, and I would have gone to jail for inflicting bodily harm on the mother, which is something I should have done anyways, for her leaving him like that. Yes, we did try and get in touch with her, but she chose not to be found, I guess.
Maybe it is me. Maybe I overreact to things, and everyone else is normal. Maybe last night’s storm was not as bad as I thought it was. My dad works nights, and he went out in the middle of it to go to work. If I had been my dad’s boss, I would have closed down and sent everyone home, because if anyone had died coming to work it would have weighed too heavily on my conscious. The job, the money isn’t that important, not when I am risking people’s lives.

Talisman

Greed

I am tired of people saying that my generation is lazy and greedy. I am not saying we aren’t, but I think every generation is greedier, lazier and all around more spoiled than the generation before it. That is just the way life works, and we do it to ourselves.
Christmas is a perfect example of it. When I was a kid I got a regular sized stocking full of socks, perfume and other essentials, I got a few outfits, and a few toys. My mother probably got less because she was born into a much larger family so I cannot compare my Christmas’ to hers. I can compare mine to my nieces and nephews and all the other kids in my family, though.
Christmas morning, at one of their houses, looks like a toy store threw up in the living room floor. I am not talking about before the mess is cleaned up, when all the wrapping paper, bows, etc are still covering the floor. I am talking about after everything is cleaned up and all of the toys are laid out in full view. It is crazy the amount of stuff these kids get.
My brother, sisters, friends and family are not wealthy, so it seems odd that they would be able to spend that much on gifts. Up until my generation started procreating, I had not seen so many gifts under a tree . . . well except for on television.
I know some of it has to do with the fact that we are not having as many children, at least not at first. For years, I only had two nephews and I could afford to get them a bunch of things, and so could everyone else in the family. Unfortunately, now that I have 5 nephews and 5 nieces I cannot see how we are going to be able to continue doing it. I said the same thing last year and we were minus a few kids then, but the Christmas the kids had was above and beyond anything I could have imagined. This year is going to be fun (I say this sarcastically).
I personally have limited my funds and the number of gifts drastically, but apparently I am the only one. I ran into my stepsisters step mom the other day and she was telling my how much she had already spent on the kids and what all they got, it made my feel real bad about my few items.
I guess I should have mentioned I have a large extended family. I have a stepsister who has a step family who buys for her kids, my sister has also been married twice so that adds to the kid’s gifts. I have a half sister who has a stepfamily and who has married a man who already had three kids. I have a sister-n-law with a decent size family and a few small children. So, I guess there are a lot of people buying for all of the kids, but it doesn’t make the amount of gifts any less crazy.
Maybe the reason I think it is a bit much is because I do not have children, but it seems to me that people are going a little overboard on the gifts, and the prices they will pay for toys that will be destroyed in less than six months is ridiculous.

(Side note. As I was writing this, my niece came into my office, and we started searching the Wal-Mart web cite for Dora toys. I am no better than the rest of my generation. :) )

Arrogant Professors

Most of the time, I have no problem with people being proud of their accomplishments. I have said before that unlike most people in my life I have college degree and hopefully very soon I will have two more, but that does not mean that I act as if that makes me better than anyone else. I do have a problem with people who expect things out of others or ask things of others, yet they do not think they should be held to such standards. As if they or their lives are more important than others and therefore they do not have abide by such things.

The professor, of my one 100 level class, has a very strict attendance policy, even though the university that I go to does not have an attendance policy at all. I do not think that I would have had a problem with this if he had not missed so many classes. Not only did he miss more classes than I could count, he has proceeded to count our absences as part of our grade.

I do understand that having such a strict policy is necessary when dealing with fresh out of high school freshman, which is what most of the students are, but come on. I believe that it should not matter how many classes a person miss, if they ace the class then they aced it, get over it.

My grade is not going to be horrible with my absences but if it were he and I would so be having rounds right about now, considering that my actual exam scores are fairly high, mostly As and Bs. But, since I have to have him again next semester, I do not want to piss him off and get a real bad score in the next class.

My 600 level grad class meets one night a week for like 3 hours, and we do a ton of work in that class, and his attendance policy is . . . well I do not even think he has one. Luckily, I have a near 4.0 in that class, so if I make a B or C in my undergrad class it should off set it and keep my GPA up a little.

I do not have high standards, I have always been a B student, and I am alright with that. Still I may email him, because I did miss a few classes but only two were for no reason. Wish me luck with that.

Talisman

Wish I could - stay

I know that I said that I'd be standing by your side, But I...
Wish I could sta - y.
Believe me I don't want to g - o.
And it'll grieve me 'cause I love you s - o.

Copyright 2001 to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy Productions, and 20th Century Fox Television.

* Lyrics are not necessarily in the right order but you catch the drift.

Is leaving the only option when you desperately want something and the one person you love more than anything in this world does not. This person knows your heart but is unwilling to change their mind to appease you. Not the something you want is a simple thing that could be easily acquired and adjusted to. It is life altering and not something to be taken lightly.
I love my fiancé with my entire heart, but my biological clock is beginning to tick and loudly. Unfortunately, he is adamant about not having children. Up until recently, I had not really wanted children all that much either. I was in a if I have them I have them, if I don’t I don’t mode, but now things are changing in me. I mean occasionally the thought had crossed my mind that I might really, really want them, but it hasn’t been until the last two years or so that I have become almost engulfed with the idea of having a child of my own. Now that I am pushing thirty, I see babies all over the place. Literally. Everyone I know has children. I have become obsessed.
I love my fiancé but I don’t know if I can stay with him if he continues to insist on not having children. I don’t know if he will ever be enough to make my life complete. He should be. I should not want anything more than him. Most of the time when I am with him I feel sedated, complete, but the ache in my heart is getting worse the older I get.
I think this has all been made worse because of the fact that I have recently had a miscarriage. He did not take the news of my pregnancy well and I nearly left him over that. But most of the men I know reacted badly when their wives/girlfriends/fiancés etc. told them they were pregnant. So I figured it was a guy thing and ignored it. Hopefully, in a few months the need will dissipate and I can go back to my life.
We use the withdrawal method during sex and that has worked well for us for nearly ten years, in the keeping me from getting pregnant department. He is unwilling to change our methods. Therefore, the chances of us ever having another accident/surprise are slim. That fact makes me very sad.
I really do not know what I should do. I don’t want to leave him. I love him and desperately want to have his children, but . . . . . . . .

Talisman

A Dead Tradition

I know that once we hit a certain age we all begin to feel as if we are losing our family traditions. We feel like the old ways were being lost and the ties that bind us as a family are slowly but surely coming undone. Because this is coming from me, most people I know would ignore the following claim. I have always been the “adult” amongst my friends; therefore they ignore me when I talk about such things. They think I am overly sentimental about things.

Today I really wish I were that person, because yesterday I watched one of my families biggest traditions die. My grandmother and my mother have always been the ones to cook both Christmas and Thanksgiving Dinner. When I got older I joined. My mom was the only one of her siblings to ever take it upon herself to help my grandmother and I have been the only grandchild. I tried getting my goddaughter/cousin to help, but she would play around a little, help a little and then go on about her business.

For the last few years my grandmother has had a hard time cooking and this year my mother has gotten too disabled to do any of it by herself. I helped the best I could, doing all of the heavy lifting, stirring, etcetera, but my help was not enough, not with the amount of food that has to be cooked for my extremely large family.

Because of their health problems, my mother and grandmother decided that next year we would all pitch in and reserve a room at a restaurant or something. Now, I did not like this idea but, since I was the only one left to cook and refused to do it by myself, I resigned myself to agreeing to do it. .

At the time the decision was made, only one of my aunts was there and she agreed to this arrangement. All of this was making me real sad. The only person who really disagreed was another aunt of mine. She claims that she will help me do the cooking next year, but considering the woman is literally certifiable, I doubt she will actually do it. Apparently, I am the only one who cares. I should not say that, a few other people said they will help but my family is so full of broken promises that they cannot be trusted.

I know what you are thinking, if these people are so bad than why do I care about keeping this tradition? My answer is, I really do not know. They are MY family, what can I say. I love them no matter how dysfunctional they are. Actually, I think I want this more for my grandparents than I want it for myself. I truly feel that once they are gone my entire family will fall apart. I wonder if that will be such a bad thing. Families don’t mean shit anymore. Our society is too f@^#&$* selfish anymore to care about anything beyond their own self satisfaction.

I really hope everyone had a wonder turkey day. I am sorry this is such a downer, but my holiday kind of sucked.

Talisman

Ignorance of Others

How do you tell a grown person that they have said something ignorant? They have no problem correcting you, or well they think they are correcting you, yet you actually know more about the subject than they do and are actually correct. They think just because they are older than you they are that they are more intelligent but in reality you are an adult yourself and actually feel that they are not as intelligent as they should be.
Two people, I know well and had always thought was well educated, has somehow shifted their thought processes in a desperate need to be right, but they are wrong and it is obvious they are wrong. But because they do not want to be wrong they are distorting reality and the facts to make themselves look right. Unfortunately, in reality, to anyone who bothers to check facts, knows they are just saying things to say them. I feel bad for this person, because they do deserve respect, but I feel that I am slowly loosing respect for them and am afraid others will also if they continue saying such things.
It is hard to loose respect for certain people, especially those you have always thought to be educated and deserving respect, because it shatters your reality when they do things or say things that cause you to loose their respect. For a long time I had been able to have discussions, some heated, but most not so much, with these people. Most of the time, I could understand their point of view on things and see why they could come to a certain way of thinking about things, and vise versa. But now, they are so dead set on being right about something that they are, as of right now wrong about, that they are saying things that are incorrect and ignorant.
I feel even worse for them when they say them in front of others, some impressionable some not, because I can see them loosing that respect in others.
I am speaking of two people in my family that I am trying desperately to understand and forgive so that I don’t lose them but some of the things they are saying are beginning to cause me to loose respect for them and am loosing the want to be around them. My fiancé keeps telling to not dwell on it but I am finding that difficult to do.

Talisman

Why Do Poeple Email Me Such Things

I received this in an email the other day and was very disturbed by it. At first I just sent it to my trash folder, but my mind kept going back to it and back to it. I just could not believe what I had read. I don’t know who this Michael Richards is (not a Seinfeld fan) or if he even wrote this. This was in a forwarded email, and we all know that most forwards are not reliable sources for anything. Saying that, I should probably not be replying to it, but if things like this can be sent to me then I think I have a right to send out a reply. Everything in italics (and green on by screen . . . may not be green once I post it) is from the email. I plan on replying to each individual statement made in the email, so this will be long.

This is great. I have been wondering about why Whites are racists, and no other race is. Proud to be White. You are proud to be black, brown, and yellowand orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists

First of all, I am proud to be white. Everyone should be proud of who they are and what their heritage is. I am a large part Native American, Cherokee on both sides of my family. One of my great, great, great etc. grandfathers was Chief of a Cherokee tribe, Whitecloud was his name. I don’t look it but my mother and a few others in my family do. My skin is pale, nearly Casperish, my hair is medium brown. I am also part German, and I think some Irish. Like many other people in this country, who are not full blooded Native American, some of my Ancestors came here from other countries. I cannot trace, well have not, fully traced my heritage as far back as I can. Also, like 99% of the people in this country I was born here, that makes me a citizen, an American. Being an American is my heritage. Yes parts of me want to know more about my Native American blood and I find it sad that the Native American languages are becoming extinct but I have been too lazy to follow through with it. Therefore, yes I am proud to be what I am, but that does not back me hate anyone else for who they are nor do I think I am better than anyone else because they don’t look like me.
Second of all, everyone is racist and judgmental to an extent. It is sad, I know, but it is true. No matter who you are, you are racist. People are scared of anything or anyone they think is different from them. No matter how hard you try, you cannot stop your mind from thinking something or reacting to something. The point is to overcome it, to not say what you were thinking, to learn why you feel that way, to try and do better.
Thirdly, we do it to ourselves. Take this email for one thing. It is things like this that tell other people that white people are still racist. Saying stupid, ignorant things like this is what makes other people dislike us. Take learning a second language for another. I have tried to teach my nieces and nephews a few Spanish words. I am not fluent in the language, in any sense of the word, but teaching them helps me keep up with what I already know plus it teaches them that there are other cultures, other languages in the world, it teaches them to look past their own front door, so to speak. Unfortunately, two of my brother-n-laws (well one technically is not my brother-n-law, he is my best-friends husband but since she is like a sister to me he I his my brother-n-law) have taken issue with this because . . . well because they are racist towards, Mexico really, I am not sure if they ever realize that Spanish is spoken in more countries than Mexico.

Michael Richards makes his point... ichael Richards better known as Kramer from TVs Seinfeld does make a good point. This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act. He makes some very interesting points... Someone finally said it... How many are actually paying attention to this?


I vaguely remember the events mentioned above. What I do remember about it was that what he said was racist. It was uncalled for, though I am not sure about the whole court issue. As I have said before in other posts, I live in the south and if every time anyone of any race said anything racist about another group of people, we went to court over this, the entire state would live in court. I am not saying he should not have to apologize to all those people he offended, especially those there that night, for saying it.

There are African Americans, Mexican Americans, Asian Americans, Arab Americans, etc. And then there are just Americans. You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction. You call me White boy,' 'Cracker,' 'Honkey,' 'Whitey,' 'Caveman' ... and that's OK. But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink ... You call me a racist.

I guess these comments will all be in parts so here goes. First of all why would they be calling you that for no reason? No one, civilized, does that. I live in the south, the Deep South, and people don’t do that. I go to a fairly large university, with, I could not tell you how many, different types of people, and have never seen anyone do that. I work in a down town area and frequently walk the back alleys and main streets and people have never done this to me or anyone else on the street. I might get a few alcoholics mumbling to themselves but no one making racial slurs about anyone else, at least not out loud for anyone to hear.
You are welcome to your own opinion in your own home or to your own personal group of people. I have been with a group of people and someone has said to us something bad about another person but not directly to their face, and most of the time we ganged up as a group on whoever said the “bad” thing and shut them up. I have been with straight people who talk about gay people, gay people who talk about straight people, white people about black people and black people about white people. Again no one is above it. For the most part though, no really says anything bad about another person or group of people directly to their faces.
They only time I have ever heard openly racist things said about anyone was when there was an argument going on, and for the most part those things were said out of anger, and to purposely hurt or enrage the other person. I am limited in my knowledge of the subject, I guess, to where I live. So maybe it is like this in other places and I am sure there are some ignorant people out there who would openly say something like that to or about someone else, black, white, Hispanic, Chinese, Japanese, poor, wealthy, gay, straight, educated, non-educated, etc. but I don’t see it as an everyday all day thing.
I am not gorgeous by any means but I do have Dolly Parton (but real, though not perky) breast, and occasionally some “man” will eye ball them or say some thing about them, but for the most part most people are civilized and don’t. Most of our population is intelligent enough not to do this and no one group can take responsibility for what a small portion of their group does. So if you hear some thing like this, be the bigger person and not acknowledge it and walk away. No one said it was “ok” for them to do this, so don’t act like they did.
Secondly, because it is not “ok” for them to call you racist names, it is not ok for you to call them such things, and yes they are being racist to call you such things and you are being racist to call them such things. (I refuse to repeat the words he listed.)

You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you... so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us. But, when a white police officer shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug- dealer running from the law and posing a threat to society, you call him a racist. I am proud... But you call me a racist. Why is it that only whites can be racists??

Ghettos are not full of just black people. They are full of low income families of all races. Crimes are not just committed in these ghettos, either, they are committed every where people live and are committed by everyone. I do not have the statistic’s in front of me, but yes from what I have heard poor countries, states, cities, neighborhoods have a higher amout of violence. The poorer a person is the more desperate they get. The more desperate they get the more they tend to result to breaking the law. If I haven’t eaten in a few days I am sure I would still some food.

You have the United Negro College Fund. If we had a college fund that
only gave white students scholarships .You know we'd be racists. There are over 60 openly proclaimed Black Colleges in the US. Yet if there were 'White colleges' That would be a racist college. You have Martin Luther King Day. You have Black History Month.. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You have Yom Hashoah. You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi. You have the NAACP. You have BET... If we had WET (White Entertainment Television), we'd be racists. We have a Hispanic Chamber of Commerce, a Black Chamber of Commerce, and then we just have the plain Chamber of Commerce. Wonder who pays for that?

First of all, I agree that we are coming upon a time where everyone should able to get a good education, but remember not too long ago it was not so, and someone had to help those who were being denied this right based on their race. Hopefully very soon we will not need such things. Although, why a white man would be complaining about such a thing, is beyond me. It isn’t like he is being denied. No one with half decent grades and the will power is going to be denied an education or the funding for the education. There are scholarships out there for everyone and for every field; you just have to apply yourself. When I finally graduate I will have a huge financial debt, but that is the price I will have to pay to get the education to get a decent job.
Secondly, every culture, every religion, hell every city or town has its on holiday. So get used to it, they are not taking yours away I promise.
Thirdly, yes, you would be racists if you had a television show called WET, especially considering that the largest chuck of talk shows, news shows, etch have predominately white hosts. We you live in a country where most of the actors are white, your television hosts are white, etc, you don’t have to have such things because you are not in the minority and your needs are already being catered to. If white people did not hold the monopoly on such things in this country, then no, no one would have a problem if there was a WET Chanel.

If we had a White Pride Day, you would call us racists. If we had White History Month, we'd be racists. If we had any organization for only whites to 'advance' OUR, lives we'd be racists.

Again, white people don’t need such things. There is not need for a White history month. White people have been the dominate force in the world for a long time. They know their history. No one tried to cover up who they were or what they invented. Their books, especially white men’s, were published without question, they have always had the right to vote, always had the right to anything they wanted. What do they need an organization to ‘advance’ their lives for, they already have and can get anything they want, which is why they would sound racist for say, doing, or organizing such things.

A white woman could not be in the Miss Black American pageant, but any color can be in the Miss America pageant.

I am not replying to this, except to say that this is petty.

In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights, you would call us racists.

White people don’t need to march for anything; their rights are not being violated.

There is nothing improper about this e-mail. Let's see which of you are proud enough to send it on. I sadly don't think many will. That's why we have lost most of OUR RIGHTS in this country. We won't stand up for ourselves! BE PROUD TO BE WHITE! It's not a crime yet ... but getting real close!

I am stopping here because I feel I am just being repetitive. I rearranged some of this email so that it would not be too repetitive and because it was getting to be too long. Being proud of who you are will never be a crime and your persecution comes form the attitude you show others. If you act as if you are better than others then they will treat you like the asswhole you are. I have made my self too ill and frustrated to go on but hopefully you get the point.

Talisman

Bored Now

I apologize, to anyone out there actually reading my rants, for the fact that I have not posted in a long while. This past week has been long and tiresome. Not too much has happened. I have spent a good deal of my free time reading Stephanie Meyers’ Twilight series.

They are cute, and, though they are a tad bit juvenile, they are entrancing. She has no sex scenes, her fight scenes are played down, and some of the dialogue is mushy, but she gives a great deal of description and emotion. The stories seem to be a little long but I love that about them. When she wrights about Forks, La Push, Phoenix, and the many other locations, in the book, I can feel myself there. All of her scenes are vivid, well thought out, and keep you reading.

I read the first two books this week, and just as soon as I do some work for my grad school class, I will pick up the third. I have also been a little sick this week, as I am sure most people have. Tis the season.

Speaking of which, my mother put up her Christmas Tree yesterday. Normally she waits until after Thanksgiving, like a normal person, but this year she didn’t. I am sure it has something to do with her having her granddaughters here for Christmas, for the first time.

That is all I really have to say for now. I got another annoying email the other day, not about Obama. Though, I would like to remind everyone that he is not in office yet and will not be until late January. Therefore, he cannot be blamed for any of Bush’s dumb polices, at least not until the end of his first year in office. So please stop telling me about how one leader or another has “called him out” or how this plan or that, of his, is ruining your job, because he hasn’t done anything yet.

Oh, back to the email. I got something the other day I want to reply to but it may take me a bit to compose it. Just thought you should be warned that just because the election is over does not mean I am done ranting. Therapy takes years.

Talisman

Gun Sales on the Rise

Today’s rant comes straight from an article posted on yahoo.com’s homepage. This article, again, makes me wonder if it really is me that needs therapy or is it everyone else. The head line read “Fears of Democrat crackdown lead to gun sales boom”. Now at first glance I did think this article was going in a completely different direction than it went, which was why I read it. Even though it did not go into some ridiculous direction where white people thought they were going to be hunted by the black people or Crazy Christians really thought he is some crazy terrorist from the Muslim religion was here to kill the infidels, it did get a little too off the wall for me.

The article starts out with “when 10-year-old Austin Smith heard Barack Obama had been elected president, he had one question: Does this mean I won't get a new gun for Christmas?” I nearly fell out of my chair. I guess my small town is a lot bigger than other people’s small town. I knew no one at the age of 10 who got a gun for any occasion or for any reason. When my brother was in his teens my dad got him a BB Gun, but then it was taken away from him because he kept shooting live animals with it. I never understood why he was given the gun to begin with.

I read later on in the article that the little boy’s mother claimed that she “taught all five of her children — ages 4 to 10 — to shoot because the family relies on game for food.” In a way I can understand that, but the article also says that she was buying a “special 20-gauge shotgun — one of at least five weapons she plans to buy before Obama takes office in January.” I know nothing about guns, so I googled the gun. It looks like every other hunting gun I have ever seen, so I trust that she is telling the truth. Although, if her family relies on game for food then I have to think that she has at least one gun already at home, if not, if she gets all that she wants to get before January, she will have at least six guns. That just seems a little much, to me. I don’t understand the need for that many guns. One or two maybe but six just seems, I don’t know. . .
Maybe she wants one for each child. Either way I can almost understand her need for them. I don’t know if I like the idea of any child knowing how to shoot a gun, unless, that child happens to John Connor and Skynet is after him, but I respect a mother’s right to teach her children if she deems it necessary.

I am not one of those people who think guns should be outlawed, but I do believe in strict gun laws. I believe certain guns should not be owned by the average person (there will never be a need for the average citizen have an assault weapon, NEVER) , because I do not believe they are necessary. I do respect that people feel they should be protected, but seriously people there is only so much protection you need, and do remember that sometimes the law is not going to work in your favor because of that gun. Also the average person really does not know how to handle a gun. Most people do not go to the firing range enough to be completely comfortable with it, and even if they do most of the time in intense situations people get a little too trigger happy, or trigger scared.

We do not live in a country where it is necessary for the average person to have a gun, of any kind. We do not have rebel forces blowing up our towns, taking our wives and children, or any thing like that. I do realize that there are some places in this country that are very dangerous to live in, but if you want to make them safer interact in them. Don’t just stock pile weapons and wait for the day they come knocking on you door, or well shooting up your door. Help a child, who is potentially going to grow up and join a gang, to get a better education. Help your society. Stop looking down on people you think are lower than you and help them rise above; help know that a better life is out there.

Also stop blaming the system for these laws and look to yourselves and others as the cause for them. The government, the man, the system, the, whatever you want to call it, has set up these laws for a reason. As long as you have idiot war lords, gang members, and other crazies doing crazies things with guns, you are going to have these laws. Also as long as people continue to want things that they just really do not need, they are going to be around. Again if your son isn’t John Connor and you are not trying to save him from Terminators, you probably do not need machine guns, or bazookas, or anything else crazy like that, and if your son really is John Connor you have worse things to worry about that gun laws.

The thing that worried me the most about the article are the following quotes

"More than 108,000 more background checks for gun purchases than in October 2007, a 15 percent increase."

"Franklin Gun Shop outside Nashville, Tenn., sold more than 70 guns on Tuesday, making it the biggest sales day since the shop opened eight years ago."

"Sold nine assault weapons the day after Obama was elected. That same day, the gun store Cheaper Than Dirt! in Fort Worth, Texas, sold $101,000 worth of merchandise, shattering its single-day sales record, store owner DeWayne Irwin said."

That tells me a lot of things that I really do not want to believe about my country. It tells me a lot more than what the article actually says. I will not go into what I think this says, mostly because it doesn’t actually say it and I do not want anyone claiming that the writer of the article said it. But it makes me wonder just how stupid the people of this country really are. It also shows me just how overly emotional they are and how easy they can be mislead and scared.

Talisman

This is not cited correctly I did not feel like taking the time. It is all the information you need to read the article.

Potter, Dena. Associated Press Writer. Fears of Democrat crackdown lead to gun sales boom. Accessed November 7 2008. http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081108/ap_on_re_us/obama_gun_sales;_ylt=Ansl1NwY0u90S90i6a36tO.s0NUE

Maybe it is not me that needs therapy.

Maybe it is the rest of the world that needs therapy. I was speaking with my best-friend today about the election and a number of other issues that have come up since Obama began is campaign, well that is not true some of these issues have been around since the beginning of time. Anyways, we were discussing the ignorance of the world, the BS that people actually believe without question or thought, and a long list of other things. When we were discussing the racial issue she told me that some one actually said in her presence, I am not sure if it was about her son or not, that mixed children were going to hell. I nearly fell out of my chair. I got so mad that I think I black out for a second. I could not believe someone could actually say something so horribly wrong. I am constantly being amazed by the things she tells me she has had to listen to throughout her life. I am so upset about it that I don’t really know what to say. I just cannot believe it. The only thing that I think is that maybe I am not the one that crazy; maybe I am one of the few sane patients on this insanity ward. No I am not really in an insane asylum. I just feel like it sometimes.

Talisman

Congratulations USA! Congratulations!

I have never been more proud of my country than I was last night. I have never cried in joy over the election of a new president. I didn’t even cry in sorrow when Bush was reelected, that was because I didn’t hate the, I just strongly didn’t want him to be back in office (I was right by the way). I feel relief for the first time in my adult life. I feel safe for the first time. I really feel that now we can be as great of a country as we should be. I have faith, a faith I have never had before, in this country. Granted as a child, teenager, and young adult I did not pay enough attention to the world around me to care, but once I did start to listen, I did begin to lose faith. I am no longer afraid. The road ahead will be long, it will be hard, but we will make it. I know that some promises will have to go on the back burner while more immediate issues take priority. I know that he is not the only one making decisions, but I know that he will do as much as he possibly can to bring this country back to its feet.

I am saddened by the reactions of a few people in my life, reactions that I did not expect from what I would have thought were intelligent adults, but that is life. I am just worried for them and about what their hate will do to this country. It is one thing to disagree with a person’s politics but it is another to spread lies and arouse hate about a person’s character. You have to take responsibility for the things you say, and think about what you want to teach your children. Do you want to teach them that someone said so and so was this type of person and we should be scared of them, we should hate them? No, you have to be more responsible than that. For one, be informed before you open your mouth. Two, heed your mother’s words “If you cannot say anything nice, don’t say anything at all.”

Most importantly be informed and only repeat and believe what was actually said by the person themselves, and not what others say about them. For instance, if you still think Obama is a terrorist Muslim, stop telling me you did research, because we both know you didn’t look up that information. You just heard it from someone who heard it from some one. If you would just stop and think about that for a second you would realize just how stupid that sounds.

Here is why. The only fact that you need is a fact that you do not even have to search through websites or books to find. The fact is we live in a post 9-11 world. We also live in a world that is still full of racism. I know that our election of an African American into the White House proves that we have come a long way, but that doesn’t mean it is gone. We may be getting better with the black and white issue, but we still harbor racist feelings against those that are different from us. Which means, after 9-11 a large section of this country became prejudice against anyone Middle Eastern and against any that was thought to Middle Eastern.

I say that to say that if anyone had ever really thought the Obama was a terrorist Muslim . . . noticed I added the word terrorist to it, because after 9-11 everyone of the Muslim religion were lumped into one large group, without anyone actually realizing that not all Muslims hate Americans, not all Muslims interpret the Koran the same way, and not all of them bombed the shit out of us. The term Muslim became associated with terrorism, when in reality it was only a small sect of that religion that attacked us, that have raged a war against us and that hate us with every ounce of themselves. Most don’t care about us, they don’t know us, and they just want to live their lives, worship their religion and to be left alone.

OK back to what I was saying, if anyone really thought that Obama was a terrorist he would have never made it into any public office in this country. Someone would have researched him and if they truly found anything or even a possibility of anything the world would have never know who he was. This may not have been true before 9-11, but in the world today they would have. There is a long laundry list of other things that prove he is not a terrorist (and I have researched most of them), but this simple fact is really all the proof that anyone needs. After 9-11, all Americans; old, young, educated, non-educated, black, white, Spanish, Japanese, etc, all of us became aware that there were people out there that hated us, and there is no way we would subject ourselves to such people. If Obama was a terrorist, if he hated this country, if any of those horrific rumors were actually true, he would have never made it into any public office. Our fear would have never let it happen. Since he was, since he has made not hint of anything, no mention of anything, we have to go on the fact that he is not.

So my words to all of you who are pretending to be scared;

GET OVER YOURSELVES. SHUT UP AND SIT DOWN BECAUSE YOU LOOK LIKE A RACIST IDIOT.

For most of us, today has been, and will continue to be, a very momentous day. I live in a fairly small town and for the first time I actually had to wait in line to vote. I have never been so proud of people I have never met. I have also never been more proud of a few people in my life. I have recently received news that a few people that I seriously thought were going to vote a certain way because they were racist voted against their racisms and for the needs of the country. I nearly cried when I was told how they voted.

No matter what happens, though, I am proud to be a part of this country, and a part of this historic election.

Watch What You Say.

I have something pretty shocking to say, something that most people on both sides of the line are going to think is a little crazy, but right this second I feel very strongly about it. I need to say that I am sure Obama would not even agree with me, not that I know him personally and can proclaim to know what he would or would not think. The closest I have ever come to meeting this man is in a dream I had about having an affair with him (sorry Michelle). In my defense I think he was single in the dream, and I have, also, had dreams where I hung out with Sarah Pallin. Other than her political views, I think she is pretty awesome.
What I have to say is this. I live in the south, Alabama to be more precise, and, as I have said before, my fiancé lives, literally, next door to a family that is notoriously racist. I will not go into details, because I cannot bring myself to think about it. Unfortunately, there are still a lot of people in the world who think this way. It is sad, and I do not understand it, but I cannot deny that it is there. Because there are still so many crazy people in the world, I think people should learn to watch what they say. I also think that people in higher authority should take charge of such things, and put a stop to them before things get out of control.
If I was voting, for a president on non-political issues, I would still vote for Obama, because I feel that the Republican people, party and Candidate are doing this country an injustice by not taking control of some of these horrendous things that are circulating about Obama, things that have been proven to be blatant lies. I understand that they want people to vote for McCain, and some of the things they say and do, I understand. Bash his economic policy, his health care policy, etc., those things I understand. But letting their people spread untrue rumors; like he is a terrorist and other things that could get him killed, is irresponsible. The big thing I really want to say is that if anything happens to him because of these rumors, everyone who spread them should be held accountable for them. I say this knowing that some of these people are my friends and family. I don’t know what the punishment should be, but they should be punished.
I am disappointed that McCain has not stepped up, been a man, addressed these things, and went on about his campaign. If I were running, I would not want to associate my campaign with such things. Whether or not he agrees with these things, though some of them his people have started them themselves, or not he needs to say he doesn’t, tell people to focus on the issues and grow up, and then go on about his real issues.
We are not in high school any more people; things like this can affect people’s lives. It is defacement of Obama’s character and should be dealt with accordingly. We as US citizens need to learn to take responsibility for our actions, and the actions of our leaders. These last few elections have gotten completely out of control, and we need to fix the system. We as a society need to stop caring about how much money Sarah Pallin and Michelle Obama paid for their clothes and care more about how we are going to pick our society up out of this muddy whole we have dug for ourselves, and to do it we have to start acting like rational, logical, adults, not like sixteen year olds who are guided by our over stimulated hormones.
We have become a society that reaches for the gossip mags instead of the newspaper, and our leaders are treating us as such. They know that people tend to care about how many babies Angelina Jolie is having or not having, than what their government is really doing, that is why they try and distract us with such BS. Don’t get me wrong, both sides do it that is the sad part. The worse part is that with each election worse and worse things are being said, things that could really hurt someone. No one is going to kill John McCain for not knowing how many homes he has, but there is someone crazy enough to believe Obama is a terrorist especially if Republicans keep saying it is so. They know it is not true, most intelligent people on this planet know it is not true, but some groups of peoples are going to hear this, think it is true and do some thing about it, and it is going to be each and every person’s, that participated in spreading the lies, fault and they should be punished for it. You cannot just say anything you want, about someone and expect there not to be consequences. I understand that each and every person that says these things cannot be punished, but for some reason I feel it is important for me to tell them that they should be.

First Blog

Friday 10-31-08

Yes, I have nothing better to do than hang out on the internet on Halloween night. No, I am kidding. My sister-n-law just left with her girls to go trick or treating. I got to help get them ready. They are so cute in their Pirate and Bat costumes. I am supposed to be working on my third and last project for my Intro to Grad. Studies class. I have gotten some work done on it, and I have found a journal to send my second project to. After I post this here, I will go back to working on those projects.

I have been thinking a lot about my first post, and I think I know why I am so overly sensitive about the whole proofreading, in informal situations, issues. I think, I am being this way because I have two people in my life, which I love dearly, but who are constantly being this way towards everyone I know. One of them is a male and the other a female, and to avoid using their names I am going to call them as such.

The male can be condescending towards complete strangers, at times. Some of this is his lack of social skills. He is an only child and, because his cousins lived so far away, he was an only grandchild. He did attend public school, but he was so much more intelligent than his other classmates that, in some ways, I think that made him a little more antisocial than most people. I am not positive on this last part, except the being more intelligent than others part, because I did not go to school with him. I am just going by his attitude now, and he acts, not really on purpose, like he is better than those around him. In a lot of ways, he is. Anyone with a genius IQ, kind of, has the right to think that. He is not genius as in Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory are geniuses, but he is damn near it, uncomfortably close to it. Because he is this way, he tends to forgets others are human, that we mess up, that we misspell words, we don’t proofread everything we write, we don’t know everything about everything, the way he nearly does.

The female does not have these credentials, though she is highly intelligent. She could have been more if she had applied herself. Her biggest thing is that she love words, she is nearly a walking dictionary. She can spell and define words that I have never even heard of. She is the only person I know that has more than five copies of the dictionary and has read them all. I am not saying that is a bad thing, but the average person probably has not done this.

Back to my point, I think I know why I am overly sensitive. It is because she does not have a degree, because she hasn’t really done much with her life. The same goes for him. He has had his degree, now, for nearly three years and he hasn’t done anything with it. He hasn’t been able to get a job, for whatever reason, and has not gone to grad school. I know I am being petty, but I don’t feel that they have the right to criticize me in any way. I can take it from people who I know are above me, but not from those who are no better than me.

For a lot of reasons I will not mention here I do not think I will ever be able to see her as better than me, but I truly want to see him as better than me. When I first met him I did, but the longer I know him, and the longer I see him not bettering himself the more I am losing my respect from him and losing my ability to take his advice on some things. I hate it because I know he understands computers, science, math and a long list of other things better than I do, but the way he is living his life now I don’t know how much longer I can hold my faith and respect for him.

Are you beginning to see why I feel I need therapy?

Talisman

Family

The one thing I want to post today is . . . well I guess I should start with a reassurance statement before I go into my first topic.

I am nearly thirty years old. I have only been pregnant one time in my life, and it was this past summer. I carried for barely six weeks before I miscarried. I never got to see the baby or hear a heart beat. I love kids. One of these days, I would like to have at least one. I do not think my patience could handle anymore than that. Both of my sisters and my brother have children. Nearly all of my friends have children. All that being said, I would like to say that the fact that I do not have children means that it is your, the parents, responsibility to tell me when the child is having a birthday, a football game, gymnastics practice, a t-ball, baseball, basketball, swimming lessons, etc.. It is not my responsibility to keep up with such things. It is your job to send out the invitations, to email, mail, fax, the schedules and do the reminding. It does not help to tell me three or four weeks before the event that there is going to be an event but you do not know of a day or time yet, then expect me to be there. When something is settled on it is your responsibility to contact everyone. If you cannot because you forgot or you did not have time, that is fine but do not get ill with the other people when they did not know about it.

I have this complaint because this has happened to me twice this week. My youngest sister put her daughter in a pageant this last Saturday. I work every Saturday. Yes, I know I said earlier that I was unemployed. I work maybe two days a week helping my step mom out at her shop. With all of my classes during the week, the only real day I can help her is on Saturday’s. I have to pay for gas somehow. Anyways, I did not find out until the day after the pageant, that my niece was in this pageant. I know my sister told me about this pageant weeks and weeks ago, but as far as I can remember she never gave me any specifics. I felt real bad for not being there. Not that I would have been able to get off work to go but I could have tried. My little sister was not mad, which I was surprised about, or at least she did not act mad, but I still felt real shitty about the whole thing.

The next thing that happened was my nephew, from my oldest sister, had a birthday last Wednesday. I have never called or gone to see him on his birthday because my sister has always done something for his birthday and I go and see him then. Well, the last time I talked to my nephew and my sister about his birthday they said he was not having a party and they were going to have a get together sometime around his birthday. Well, the weekend before his birthday came and went, and I thought well she will call me or email me with something this week. The week of his birthday went by, and nothing. Then the weekend after his birthday came and went, so I emailed her. She proceeds to make me feel bad, because they did something on his birthday and I was not there. Yeah I could have called, but you know he is not my child, therefore it is your (my sister not you the reader) responsibility to let me know these things.

I am getting real tired of people acting like; just because I do not have children that I have nothing better to do than to keep tabs on their every waking movement. I have plenty of things in my life keeping me busy, and you know what even if I didn’t, it is still your responsibility.

Don’t get me wrong I love my family, and I really could make more of an effort to keep in touch more, but it is a two way street.

Talisman
Wednesday 10-29-08 10:05 pm.

Email Response

I wrote the following in response to an email I received this morning, that was in response to the email I sent out yesterday, and posted here early this morning. Apparently, this person either did not read all of the email or the only point they got from it, which was not even a point I was trying to make, was that I was voting for Obama. That was all the person emailed back to me was, "you are voting for Obama?" From this I can gather that no one really cares about truth in this country.

Yes, but that was not the point. The point was for people to know who they are voting for and to focus on real political issues. I am tired of people wanting to talk to be about Palin's daughter having a baby. That is not a political issue. That has nothing do with how anyone should vote. I am also tired of people sending me this email. I do not mind funny jokes making fun of any of them but spreading rumors and lies about Obama, Bidden, Palin, or McCain is harmful. I put Palin first in front of McCain, because I am in-love with her as a person. I may not agree with her on politics but she is hilarious. There are too many people in this world who take those things (non-political issuse) seriously and that his how they vote. There are people who are not going to vote for McCain because Palin is a woman, and there are people who will not vote for Obama because he is black. We as intelligent people have to take responsibility for those people and be careful what we say around uniformed people. People who will believe that McCain thinks we should kill Obama (I am paraphrasing some of the things that have been said at his rallies) are not intelligent enough to know that McCain does not feel that way, and when people spend there time repeating it and sending out mass emails saying such, it takes way form his platform. And the same goes for Obama, when things like this are sent out. Now, when I first got the email I did not know if it was true or not, which is why I checked it out. Most people are not responsible enough to do such things. They just go oh that is true and run with it. Most of the time, I ignore it, taking comfort in the fact that I did what I was supposed to do and double checked the facts, but this particular email I kept getting and getting. So I figure if people thought it was important enough to keeping sending it to me it was important enough for me to send out my email. I would have done it if someone had sent such a thing about McCain. It had nothing to do with who I am voting for. As far as I can tell no Democrat has sent me anything about McCain, aside from a few jokes, but I have gotten those about Obama also. I don't forwards things, except on rare occasions. Hell, I almost never read forwards so I am sure I have gotten more than just this one email about either one of them. I am an issues person and feel people should focus on those and when they hear rumors/non issue things they should research and judge from there how they want to vote. I think I said some of this at the end of the email.

That was my response. I still do not know if what I said actually got through to this person, but hopefully they not fully understand the point I was trying to make.

Talisman

Obama

I am writing this because I keep getting the same email over and over again. At first I disregarded it, because, well I almost never read email forwards (sorry to all that send them to me but I don't really have time). Once I noticed that I was getting the same email over and over again I decided to read the damn thing.

When I read it, I asked around and read a few websites to see if the information was true. I do this research, because I do not take rumor as truth. I do not believe someone did or said something unless I see it for myself. Once I had read a great deal of information and came to the conclusion that the information was false, I went on with my life. Today I got the email again, this time it was sent to me more as a question of is this true or not, so here is my answer.
In regards to the email about Barrack Obama not saluting the flag and not saying the anthem, because he is unpatriotic and a terrorist (I am paraphrasing here), from what I have read it is all untrue. Yes, in that particular picture he does not have his hand over his heart but I have found countless other pictures where he does. In the same picture one of the senators has his hand over his heart but is not looking in the direction, Obama, Hilary and the others are, and where I am assuming another flag is. I am assuming that they are looking in the direction of this other flag, because if not they should be facing behind them. The flag behind them is the flag they should be saluting to. If Obama is being unpatriotic here then the same claim could be made about the senator who is not facing the flag. I am not making this claim, because I feel that both ideas are ridiculous, I am just pointing out the possible flow of logic.

If the fact that Obama does not have his hand over his heart offends you, then President Bush should also offend you, because there is a picture of him not doing the same thing.

As to the claim that Obama does not say the national anthem, that is apparently untrue also. There are videos all over the net that show him doing this.
All of this aside, the biggest constant that I have found on this topic is that every website, I have looked at so far, claims this email to be a hoax. "No, Barack Obama didn't really say these ridiculous things. The words were put in his mouth by conservative humorist John Semmens (see his October 27, 2007 column, "Semi-News, on the Arizona Conservative website). The intent was satirical" (about.com). The comment was as far I can tell supposed to be a joke but someone took it out of context and ran with it. Please be informed that this happens all the time on all sides of the political lines.
My point in no way is to push my beliefs of presidential choices on anyone. My point is to simply inform. I am of the opinion that as long as someone votes for a presidential nominee based on actual political issues than that is all that matters. A person should not get your vote based on their age, sex, color, if their child is a teenager and pregnant, how many homes they have, how much money they have, what someone else did ten years before for they met them or even a year before they met them, what their parents or grandparents religion, political or any other beliefs where.


If we were to base our opinions of others on such things then most of you would hate me. My grandfather, future mother in-law, and my fiancé’s neighbors are all extremely racist. I attended a church were the preacher said things that were in direct offense to Jesus himself. My father had at times extreme religious views that would, if they were true, have me going to hell for every single thing I do, say, or think. I could go on but I hope you get my point. There are a lot of people in my life that I disagree with on a large number of topics and on a large number of things I agree with them on. Their views in no way reflect my own. Just I am sure that the views of some of the people at McCain's rallies are in no way his personal views and the same goes for people that Obama know.
All I am trying to say is that you should vote for people based on politics. Which candidate you feel will take care of you. Which, economic policy you believe will help you, which health-care policy will help you, and so on. You should also be well informed on these topics. I feel that factcheck.org is one of the best unbiased sites to go to. It will tell you if what Obama said about McCain is true or if what McCain said about Obama is true. It will even tell you what they say about themselves is true. Although, you also should never take one sites word on something to be the whole truth, you should always read multiple sites, read everyone's point of view and take your conclusions from there.
I realize this is a lot to ask of most people and is a very idealistic way to look at things. I know that we do not always have time to check everything everyone says, but please remember this is America and these men are not your average Joe/Jane off of the street, they have experience, they have knowledge and we as Americans would never have let them get this far in our government if they were actually terrorist, unpatriotic, un-American, un-anything. Therefore, if you get information, especially information like this, please check the information.

http://urbanlegends.about.com/od/barackobama/a/obama_anthem.htm www.snopes.com/politics/obama/anthem.asp
www.factcheck.org

Talisman

Introductions

Monday 10-27-08 3:13 A.M.

Hello out there in . . . I think the line from The Night of the Comet is “television land”, but considering that movie was made in 1984 and the World Wide Web did not exist then, I think the appropriate line would now be internet land, so hello everyone out there in internet land. I am sure you can guess by my hello to the internet that I am new to the blog world. I have posted a few times on my myspace page, but those were more to keep my friends and family updated on my life. I have also posted a few times here on blogspot as an assignment for my Bible as Lit. Class, but other than these few postings I have never really gotten into blogging.

I am not sure why this morning of all times I decided to start such a thing. It may very well be because of an email I sent out, in mass, this morning, about an email I kept getting over and over again, that was very annoying. I will post the email later, but for now I just want to ramble a while.

As the title of this blog says, the second reason I have for doing this is because I am quite positive I need therapy. Unfortunately, I am technically an unemployed graduate student and cannot afford the high price of a therapy bill. So, until the day comes that I get my doctorate and am making descent money or the day my fiancé gets a job in his field and we are making a great living, I will have to settle for something a lot less expensive. This is also unfortunate for anyone who may read this because you have to listen to my insistent rambling and tirades. Well you don’t have to. You can always go read something else, I will never know, but if you choose to continue read welcome to my world.

The first major subject I would like to go over before I start this blog, is the subject of my blog style. I do have a degree and am currently working on two more. I spend a large chunk of my day revising and editing, therefore I refuse to do that here. I am going to treat this as an informal blog, and will not be grammatically correct in everything I say. There will be times when I misspell a word or not add a comma where there should be one, and there most definitely will be type-o’s. If you are going to be so pompous as to be that concerned which how grammatically correct I am in every sentence, you should probably not stick around for anything I have to say. Nothing I say here will ever be published in a scholarly journal, a magazine or a news paper anywhere, so I am not going to over think every little thing I type. Also, I am not going to spend my entire day reading and rereading everything I write trying to make it perfect. I have papers for Intro. To Grad. Studies to do that in. If on the off chance that someone would be insane enough to want to publish my ramblings, I am sure their editing staff and I will rework this into a publishable work. Until then whatever I submit, is what you get to read.

I know that this sounds like I am being overly sensitive or something and maybe I am, but as I said earlier I spend all day watching my ps and qs and I really do not have the time or the energy to do that here. My point is, I guess, that I am feeling real repressed right now, and I hate it. I graduated last December and now feel like everyone expects me to be perfect all of the time. I am human and in being so I will quite often make mistakes, and I feel that I should be allowed to make them without anyone saying anything about it.

I read emails and notes from people all day that have weird abbreviations, which do not make since, or have simple misspellings, because they were in a hurry when they wrote them. I do not say anything because I have a degree and most people around me do not and I do not want to seem arrogant. Also, I think it is rude to do such a thing to anyone. The only time, I feel, such things should be mentioned is if the person asks for, whatever it is, to be edited. Other than that, I think it is rude to constantly tell a person “you missed spelled this” or “this should be in its own paragraph” or a thousand other things nit-picky things that do not mean a damn in everyday conversation. In academic situations or professional situations, when something is going to be viewed publicly that is a different story, but when a person is just sending a friend or acquaintance an email or posting things in an informal situation, such as this, such things should not be over analyzed.

I say this, because I do not want anyone commenting on such things when it comes to this blog. I am perfectly happy having discussions on topics, but I am not going to correct anyone’s spelling or grammar and will not be bothered with anyone doing the same to me.

O.K., I rambled a little there, but now I want to go back to the feeling repressed subject. Lately, I have been feeling like I am under a microscope and everything I say and do is under major scrutiny. I am nearly thirty years old, but because I do not own my own home, my fiancé and I have been dating for ten years and have not set a date, and because we do not have children, I feel like people treat me as if I am still sixteen years old and not old enough to know anything. In reality, when I comes to a large range of topics I have studied more than they and, I feel, I think more logically about these issues. I am not going to go into any great detail right now on any of this, mostly because I am tired and not in the mood, but eventually I hope to cover a laundry list of issues.

Well, that is the best of an introduction I think I do right now. It is 4:42 in the morning where I am and I should really go to bed. I will post my email in a separate post. Considering it is what got this whole thing started, I think I should post it before I post anything else.

Talisman