Off to Jail, maybe.

Why do people insist on pissing me off. I mean you can tell by looking at me that I am not a nice person, so pissing me off is not a good idea. My fiance has finally gotten a job, well at least we think he has the job. The man he has spoken with locally acts as if he has the job, he has his uniform and has gone through all kinds of tests, vaccines and a stack of paperwork. The only problem is the Bitch we went to see today. They man he spoke with yesterday told him that he had to be in the companies head quarters at eight this morning to pick up his uniform and fill out some papers. I went with him, neither one of us thought it was a big deal. Well when we get there the woman cops and attitude with us and says, "You know you are going to be here all day don't you?" My fiance tells her no he did not. She goes on and on about it, telling him that he has a five hour video to watch and kinds of stuff to do. We are like that is fine. I can wait. I even sit out in the car for awhile napping while his is doing his thing. After she is done telling us over and over again that he will be there all day and why, she proceeds to say, "You have to have a hair cut." He says alright. His hair is not that long but whatever. She then begins to rant about his hair. Telling him he has to work with the public so his hair has to be cut. He does not argue with her. She then asks if the man who had sent him had told him he had to cut his hair. He said no but that it was not a big deal. He tries to ask her how short and she just goes on and on. Finally she tells him he has to have a police officers hair cut. This of course does not help because we know officers with all kinds of hair length. She gets a little ill with him about this. Finally he gives up and simple says that is fine over and over again as she continues to go on and on about it. He is not upset about cutting his hair at all. Of course he wants to keep as much length as possible. When we get home his best friend calls to ask him what all he said to her, because he works for this company also and is close friends with the man who has hired him and he says that the woman called complaining about his attitude. I told my fiance she had better pray he gets the job because if he doesn't and it is because of her lying bitchy ass I am getting hers. That is ridiculous. Well I gotta get off of here a friend is calling. Excuse any misspellings because I am not going to proof read this.

Talisman

Wake Up Sex

I absolutely love wake up sex. You know, the kind of sex that only one of you knows you are about to have because the other is dead asleep. The only down side is that it is five in the morning and I am wide awake because of it. He deserved it though because he has had the flu for nearly two weeks now and I have not been able to give him a simple kiss let alone anything else during this time period.

Sticking to the subject of sex, my god-daughter, who is eleven years younger than me, held a Passions Party the other night. For those who do not know what that is, it is basically a sex toys party. We had fun, but I felt old realizing she is old enough to be having sex, thinking about sex and buying the toys. We had a blast though. I have no shame so will do and say just about anything. You cannot go to those things with hang ups about the subject of sex.

Ok now I am getting off (no pun intended) the subject of sex. Work has been fine since the laptop incident. My boss and I just avoid each other. He doesn't come into the studio often anyways and seems to be calling and coming in less, when I am around, every since. The office manager and I have even been handling classes by ourselves. That almost never happens. I am fine with it. The man is sort of an idiot who is more worried about Wall Street than putting together our next piece. But if he lets the studio go belly up I will just find another job and go on with my life.

My fiance appears to have finally found a permanent job. It isn't in his field but with the economy the way it is we are just glad he has the job, if he for sure has it. We finally paid for him to take the GRE also. He will take it next month and I pray he gets the scores he needs to get into grad school. I dread the next semester myself. I have enjoyed this last month or so off.

I sent my first novel off to an agent a few weeks back. I have not heard anything yet. I am about to give up with that company and go on to the next. I have picked out six or seven at the moment to send it to. I am itching to send it to all of them right now but I don't want the book out to too many people and have to contact them if someone else picks it up. I am half way through the first draft of my second novel. I am surprising myself at how easy this second novel is coming out of me. I think out of the two novels if one gets picked up it will be this second one. Not that the first one is shit because it isn't. I am rereading it right now myself. there are a few slow parts but for the most part it is fast paced and attention grabbing.

My brother is back from Iraq but has not called his mother. I truly cannot believe the audacity of some people. I know my mother thinks I am cold hearted but I just cannot get upset over he and his wife anymore. I love my brother but if he is thinks being an ass is productive, he can be an ass somewhere that is away from me. My grandparents did come over the other day and say that my brother told one of my cousins that he was leaving his wife when he got out of the military. Maybe that is a sign that he really does know how crazy his wife is. If so he should have only pretended to act a fool to his mother instead of actually doing it.

Well the adrenaline rush of the wake up sex is wearing off and I think I am going to go back to bed for a few more hours.

Talisman

The audacity of some people.

This may sound petty but it really pissed me off. My boss called me at work today and actually asked me if he could borrow my lap top for the weekend. That is about the . . . well I don't even know what to call it. Who does that? It is not like he has asked for something that I almost never use or didn't cost me an arm and a leg. I am an grad student working maybe 2o hours a week for nothing (he should know he pays me). I don't have the money to buy another one if this one dies. And if he can replace it if it does then why doesn't he have his own. My life is on this thing. I take it everywhere. I went to a friend's house tonight where everyone was playing rock band and well I wasn't because that would never happen. I can sing but don't put an instrument in my hand. I am too uncoordinated for that. Anyways, I sat in the corner singing along to the songs I knew and working on a chapter for my second book. I don't think I would have ever finished my first one if it hadn't been for this thing. Ideas come to me like farts and if I am not in a position to write them down when they come I lose them. Of course I had to say no. Don't get me wrong I feel bad about telling him no because I one of those people who always tries to help everyone, but I could not let something this important to me go away for any length of time. I don't think I could even let my fiance borrow it for that long of a period. Now, my boss is all pouty like a three year old. When I first told him no he kept on begging, saying things like he really needed it because our business needed it. Well if our business needs it he needs to buy our business one. I got this one for like five hundred dollars. That is not cheap but it is cheaper than most that I have priced. Finally, to shut him up I told him I would have to think about it, then an hour or so later I emailed and told him no. Now get this, he actually emailed me back and said "I am sorry to. It is sad to know that we have gotten to the point that things are more important than people and relationships." OH MY GOD. Childish much. I could not believe it. I think I am going to have to quit my job. I don't want to but that is just ridiculous. If he is going to be like this every time I tell him no, then I cannot work for him. I mean grow up. It would be like if I called Candace or Annah or Wendy up and asked to take their cell phones or something equally important for four days. They love me but that is their life line to their kids and their husbands. They could not be without their cells for more than a few hours. Especially Candace because if she doesn't answer every hour on the hour when I call we have problems. No not really. I am kidding because she and I are always playing phone tag. It isn't like I am a selfish person. My youngest sister has my camera right now. I am not worried about it and when I need it again I will get it. But I don't use it everyday. I can live without it for a few days. I don't know maybe I am a bitch but I just did not feel right saying yes. I actually feel kind of uneasy that he would ask for it. I don't know but now I am all uncomfortable about going back to work and seeing and talking to him again. Maybe it is nothing but something feels off and odd about him asking and his reaction to my saying no.

Apparently I am bad at this.

Again it has been way too long since I have posted anything. It is probably a good thing that no one is actually reading this. Too much has happened in the last few months. Most of it bad. I will not depress you with all of it. Very little good has happened. The best of which is the fact that I finished my first novel back in April. Right now it is being passed around through my friends and family for editing. I have also sent out one query letter to the Paula Balzer Literary Agency. Grad - school was time consuming this past semester. I am surprised I was able to finish the novel. I have a thousand and one soap boxes I could jump on but for now I just wanted to post an update.

Talisman

Ramblings and Updates

I apologize for the fact that it has been so long since I have posted. Not that, I am sure, anyone has noticed. The holiday’s really snuck up on me, making my life real crazy for a few weeks.
My Christmas went better than my Thanksgiving, thankfully. I got some really cool gifts and no one acted a fool, well at least not while I was around.
I walked out on my job for like a day and a half. I went back, of course. The way this economy is, I could not afford to simply quit my job without having another one lined up. Things have gone better since then. I have actually enjoyed going into work. I used to dread it.
My fiancé and I split up and got back together all in one night. I may have mentioned this already. It was over something kind of serious, but for right now not something I really want to worry about. The funny part about it all is that my best friend and her husband did the same thing this past week, except they were apart for a few days. It was her husband’s fault, of course. I am not just saying that because she is my friend, it really was. I love her husband, because she loves him, but he is something else sometimes.
My little sister’s ex-husband, also, decided it was time to pull some BS. Not that it will get him anywhere, he has been trying since my nephew was like three years old to take him away from her, and it never works. My sister is a wonderful mother; there isn’t a judge in this country that would take her kids from her.
I went to see Twilight again. I am so very sad. I have also started rereading the books.
I am reading Duma Key, stories from Skeleton Crew, and the first book in the True Blood series called Dead until Dawn. Yes, I can really read that many books at once and keep up. I tend to forget to take books with me wherever I go, so I have them dispersed everywhere. I have two by my bedside, one in my bathroom, and one at my fiancé’s house. I also keep a collection of audio books at work to listen to. I bore easily, I guess.
I am having issues with my classes. I received a letter stating that I had too many undergrad classes, without having a degree. The kicker is that I have a degree. I thought I had is set up to where I would be working on two different degrees at once, but whatever. I went ahead and dropped my two undergrad classes, so I only have one class this semester.
I am fine with that because since November I have been working almost non-stop on a few novels. One is over 70 thousand words and is nearly ready for editing. The other is technically a trilogy. I am not very far along in it right this second, but it is coming along nicely. Having the break should give me time to work on them.
My short story, the one that I have in circulation, still has not been picked up, but I am not discouraged. I have not gotten any bad reviews. I am taking that as a good sign. I was told that if the story is bad they usually tell you. If I was mislead, than oh well. I am still not worried. I like the story. Everyone I know liked the story. That is all that counts, right.