Friday, October 31, 2008

First Blog

Friday 10-31-08

Yes, I have nothing better to do than hang out on the internet on Halloween night. No, I am kidding. My sister-n-law just left with her girls to go trick or treating. I got to help get them ready. They are so cute in their Pirate and Bat costumes. I am supposed to be working on my third and last project for my Intro to Grad. Studies class. I have gotten some work done on it, and I have found a journal to send my second project to. After I post this here, I will go back to working on those projects.

I have been thinking a lot about my first post, and I think I know why I am so overly sensitive about the whole proofreading, in informal situations, issues. I think, I am being this way because I have two people in my life, which I love dearly, but who are constantly being this way towards everyone I know. One of them is a male and the other a female, and to avoid using their names I am going to call them as such.

The male can be condescending towards complete strangers, at times. Some of this is his lack of social skills. He is an only child and, because his cousins lived so far away, he was an only grandchild. He did attend public school, but he was so much more intelligent than his other classmates that, in some ways, I think that made him a little more antisocial than most people. I am not positive on this last part, except the being more intelligent than others part, because I did not go to school with him. I am just going by his attitude now, and he acts, not really on purpose, like he is better than those around him. In a lot of ways, he is. Anyone with a genius IQ, kind of, has the right to think that. He is not genius as in Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory are geniuses, but he is damn near it, uncomfortably close to it. Because he is this way, he tends to forgets others are human, that we mess up, that we misspell words, we don’t proofread everything we write, we don’t know everything about everything, the way he nearly does.

The female does not have these credentials, though she is highly intelligent. She could have been more if she had applied herself. Her biggest thing is that she love words, she is nearly a walking dictionary. She can spell and define words that I have never even heard of. She is the only person I know that has more than five copies of the dictionary and has read them all. I am not saying that is a bad thing, but the average person probably has not done this.

Back to my point, I think I know why I am overly sensitive. It is because she does not have a degree, because she hasn’t really done much with her life. The same goes for him. He has had his degree, now, for nearly three years and he hasn’t done anything with it. He hasn’t been able to get a job, for whatever reason, and has not gone to grad school. I know I am being petty, but I don’t feel that they have the right to criticize me in any way. I can take it from people who I know are above me, but not from those who are no better than me.

For a lot of reasons I will not mention here I do not think I will ever be able to see her as better than me, but I truly want to see him as better than me. When I first met him I did, but the longer I know him, and the longer I see him not bettering himself the more I am losing my respect from him and losing my ability to take his advice on some things. I hate it because I know he understands computers, science, math and a long list of other things better than I do, but the way he is living his life now I don’t know how much longer I can hold my faith and respect for him.

Are you beginning to see why I feel I need therapy?

Talisman

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Family

The one thing I want to post today is . . . well I guess I should start with a reassurance statement before I go into my first topic.

I am nearly thirty years old. I have only been pregnant one time in my life, and it was this past summer. I carried for barely six weeks before I miscarried. I never got to see the baby or hear a heart beat. I love kids. One of these days, I would like to have at least one. I do not think my patience could handle anymore than that. Both of my sisters and my brother have children. Nearly all of my friends have children. All that being said, I would like to say that the fact that I do not have children means that it is your, the parents, responsibility to tell me when the child is having a birthday, a football game, gymnastics practice, a t-ball, baseball, basketball, swimming lessons, etc.. It is not my responsibility to keep up with such things. It is your job to send out the invitations, to email, mail, fax, the schedules and do the reminding. It does not help to tell me three or four weeks before the event that there is going to be an event but you do not know of a day or time yet, then expect me to be there. When something is settled on it is your responsibility to contact everyone. If you cannot because you forgot or you did not have time, that is fine but do not get ill with the other people when they did not know about it.

I have this complaint because this has happened to me twice this week. My youngest sister put her daughter in a pageant this last Saturday. I work every Saturday. Yes, I know I said earlier that I was unemployed. I work maybe two days a week helping my step mom out at her shop. With all of my classes during the week, the only real day I can help her is on Saturday’s. I have to pay for gas somehow. Anyways, I did not find out until the day after the pageant, that my niece was in this pageant. I know my sister told me about this pageant weeks and weeks ago, but as far as I can remember she never gave me any specifics. I felt real bad for not being there. Not that I would have been able to get off work to go but I could have tried. My little sister was not mad, which I was surprised about, or at least she did not act mad, but I still felt real shitty about the whole thing.

The next thing that happened was my nephew, from my oldest sister, had a birthday last Wednesday. I have never called or gone to see him on his birthday because my sister has always done something for his birthday and I go and see him then. Well, the last time I talked to my nephew and my sister about his birthday they said he was not having a party and they were going to have a get together sometime around his birthday. Well, the weekend before his birthday came and went, and I thought well she will call me or email me with something this week. The week of his birthday went by, and nothing. Then the weekend after his birthday came and went, so I emailed her. She proceeds to make me feel bad, because they did something on his birthday and I was not there. Yeah I could have called, but you know he is not my child, therefore it is your (my sister not you the reader) responsibility to let me know these things.

I am getting real tired of people acting like; just because I do not have children that I have nothing better to do than to keep tabs on their every waking movement. I have plenty of things in my life keeping me busy, and you know what even if I didn’t, it is still your responsibility.

Don’t get me wrong I love my family, and I really could make more of an effort to keep in touch more, but it is a two way street.

Talisman
Wednesday 10-29-08 10:05 pm.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Email Response

I wrote the following in response to an email I received this morning, that was in response to the email I sent out yesterday, and posted here early this morning. Apparently, this person either did not read all of the email or the only point they got from it, which was not even a point I was trying to make, was that I was voting for Obama. That was all the person emailed back to me was, "you are voting for Obama?" From this I can gather that no one really cares about truth in this country.

Yes, but that was not the point. The point was for people to know who they are voting for and to focus on real political issues. I am tired of people wanting to talk to be about Palin's daughter having a baby. That is not a political issue. That has nothing do with how anyone should vote. I am also tired of people sending me this email. I do not mind funny jokes making fun of any of them but spreading rumors and lies about Obama, Bidden, Palin, or McCain is harmful. I put Palin first in front of McCain, because I am in-love with her as a person. I may not agree with her on politics but she is hilarious. There are too many people in this world who take those things (non-political issuse) seriously and that his how they vote. There are people who are not going to vote for McCain because Palin is a woman, and there are people who will not vote for Obama because he is black. We as intelligent people have to take responsibility for those people and be careful what we say around uniformed people. People who will believe that McCain thinks we should kill Obama (I am paraphrasing some of the things that have been said at his rallies) are not intelligent enough to know that McCain does not feel that way, and when people spend there time repeating it and sending out mass emails saying such, it takes way form his platform. And the same goes for Obama, when things like this are sent out. Now, when I first got the email I did not know if it was true or not, which is why I checked it out. Most people are not responsible enough to do such things. They just go oh that is true and run with it. Most of the time, I ignore it, taking comfort in the fact that I did what I was supposed to do and double checked the facts, but this particular email I kept getting and getting. So I figure if people thought it was important enough to keeping sending it to me it was important enough for me to send out my email. I would have done it if someone had sent such a thing about McCain. It had nothing to do with who I am voting for. As far as I can tell no Democrat has sent me anything about McCain, aside from a few jokes, but I have gotten those about Obama also. I don't forwards things, except on rare occasions. Hell, I almost never read forwards so I am sure I have gotten more than just this one email about either one of them. I am an issues person and feel people should focus on those and when they hear rumors/non issue things they should research and judge from there how they want to vote. I think I said some of this at the end of the email.

That was my response. I still do not know if what I said actually got through to this person, but hopefully they not fully understand the point I was trying to make.

Talisman

Obama

I am writing this because I keep getting the same email over and over again. At first I disregarded it, because, well I almost never read email forwards (sorry to all that send them to me but I don't really have time). Once I noticed that I was getting the same email over and over again I decided to read the damn thing.

When I read it, I asked around and read a few websites to see if the information was true. I do this research, because I do not take rumor as truth. I do not believe someone did or said something unless I see it for myself. Once I had read a great deal of information and came to the conclusion that the information was false, I went on with my life. Today I got the email again, this time it was sent to me more as a question of is this true or not, so here is my answer.
In regards to the email about Barrack Obama not saluting the flag and not saying the anthem, because he is unpatriotic and a terrorist (I am paraphrasing here), from what I have read it is all untrue. Yes, in that particular picture he does not have his hand over his heart but I have found countless other pictures where he does. In the same picture one of the senators has his hand over his heart but is not looking in the direction, Obama, Hilary and the others are, and where I am assuming another flag is. I am assuming that they are looking in the direction of this other flag, because if not they should be facing behind them. The flag behind them is the flag they should be saluting to. If Obama is being unpatriotic here then the same claim could be made about the senator who is not facing the flag. I am not making this claim, because I feel that both ideas are ridiculous, I am just pointing out the possible flow of logic.

If the fact that Obama does not have his hand over his heart offends you, then President Bush should also offend you, because there is a picture of him not doing the same thing.

As to the claim that Obama does not say the national anthem, that is apparently untrue also. There are videos all over the net that show him doing this.
All of this aside, the biggest constant that I have found on this topic is that every website, I have looked at so far, claims this email to be a hoax. "No, Barack Obama didn't really say these ridiculous things. The words were put in his mouth by conservative humorist John Semmens (see his October 27, 2007 column, "Semi-News, on the Arizona Conservative website). The intent was satirical" (about.com). The comment was as far I can tell supposed to be a joke but someone took it out of context and ran with it. Please be informed that this happens all the time on all sides of the political lines.
My point in no way is to push my beliefs of presidential choices on anyone. My point is to simply inform. I am of the opinion that as long as someone votes for a presidential nominee based on actual political issues than that is all that matters. A person should not get your vote based on their age, sex, color, if their child is a teenager and pregnant, how many homes they have, how much money they have, what someone else did ten years before for they met them or even a year before they met them, what their parents or grandparents religion, political or any other beliefs where.


If we were to base our opinions of others on such things then most of you would hate me. My grandfather, future mother in-law, and my fiancé’s neighbors are all extremely racist. I attended a church were the preacher said things that were in direct offense to Jesus himself. My father had at times extreme religious views that would, if they were true, have me going to hell for every single thing I do, say, or think. I could go on but I hope you get my point. There are a lot of people in my life that I disagree with on a large number of topics and on a large number of things I agree with them on. Their views in no way reflect my own. Just I am sure that the views of some of the people at McCain's rallies are in no way his personal views and the same goes for people that Obama know.
All I am trying to say is that you should vote for people based on politics. Which candidate you feel will take care of you. Which, economic policy you believe will help you, which health-care policy will help you, and so on. You should also be well informed on these topics. I feel that factcheck.org is one of the best unbiased sites to go to. It will tell you if what Obama said about McCain is true or if what McCain said about Obama is true. It will even tell you what they say about themselves is true. Although, you also should never take one sites word on something to be the whole truth, you should always read multiple sites, read everyone's point of view and take your conclusions from there.
I realize this is a lot to ask of most people and is a very idealistic way to look at things. I know that we do not always have time to check everything everyone says, but please remember this is America and these men are not your average Joe/Jane off of the street, they have experience, they have knowledge and we as Americans would never have let them get this far in our government if they were actually terrorist, unpatriotic, un-American, un-anything. Therefore, if you get information, especially information like this, please check the information.

http://urbanlegends.about.com/od/barackobama/a/obama_anthem.htm www.snopes.com/politics/obama/anthem.asp
www.factcheck.org

Talisman

Introductions

Monday 10-27-08 3:13 A.M.

Hello out there in . . . I think the line from The Night of the Comet is “television land”, but considering that movie was made in 1984 and the World Wide Web did not exist then, I think the appropriate line would now be internet land, so hello everyone out there in internet land. I am sure you can guess by my hello to the internet that I am new to the blog world. I have posted a few times on my myspace page, but those were more to keep my friends and family updated on my life. I have also posted a few times here on blogspot as an assignment for my Bible as Lit. Class, but other than these few postings I have never really gotten into blogging.

I am not sure why this morning of all times I decided to start such a thing. It may very well be because of an email I sent out, in mass, this morning, about an email I kept getting over and over again, that was very annoying. I will post the email later, but for now I just want to ramble a while.

As the title of this blog says, the second reason I have for doing this is because I am quite positive I need therapy. Unfortunately, I am technically an unemployed graduate student and cannot afford the high price of a therapy bill. So, until the day comes that I get my doctorate and am making descent money or the day my fiancé gets a job in his field and we are making a great living, I will have to settle for something a lot less expensive. This is also unfortunate for anyone who may read this because you have to listen to my insistent rambling and tirades. Well you don’t have to. You can always go read something else, I will never know, but if you choose to continue read welcome to my world.

The first major subject I would like to go over before I start this blog, is the subject of my blog style. I do have a degree and am currently working on two more. I spend a large chunk of my day revising and editing, therefore I refuse to do that here. I am going to treat this as an informal blog, and will not be grammatically correct in everything I say. There will be times when I misspell a word or not add a comma where there should be one, and there most definitely will be type-o’s. If you are going to be so pompous as to be that concerned which how grammatically correct I am in every sentence, you should probably not stick around for anything I have to say. Nothing I say here will ever be published in a scholarly journal, a magazine or a news paper anywhere, so I am not going to over think every little thing I type. Also, I am not going to spend my entire day reading and rereading everything I write trying to make it perfect. I have papers for Intro. To Grad. Studies to do that in. If on the off chance that someone would be insane enough to want to publish my ramblings, I am sure their editing staff and I will rework this into a publishable work. Until then whatever I submit, is what you get to read.

I know that this sounds like I am being overly sensitive or something and maybe I am, but as I said earlier I spend all day watching my ps and qs and I really do not have the time or the energy to do that here. My point is, I guess, that I am feeling real repressed right now, and I hate it. I graduated last December and now feel like everyone expects me to be perfect all of the time. I am human and in being so I will quite often make mistakes, and I feel that I should be allowed to make them without anyone saying anything about it.

I read emails and notes from people all day that have weird abbreviations, which do not make since, or have simple misspellings, because they were in a hurry when they wrote them. I do not say anything because I have a degree and most people around me do not and I do not want to seem arrogant. Also, I think it is rude to do such a thing to anyone. The only time, I feel, such things should be mentioned is if the person asks for, whatever it is, to be edited. Other than that, I think it is rude to constantly tell a person “you missed spelled this” or “this should be in its own paragraph” or a thousand other things nit-picky things that do not mean a damn in everyday conversation. In academic situations or professional situations, when something is going to be viewed publicly that is a different story, but when a person is just sending a friend or acquaintance an email or posting things in an informal situation, such as this, such things should not be over analyzed.

I say this, because I do not want anyone commenting on such things when it comes to this blog. I am perfectly happy having discussions on topics, but I am not going to correct anyone’s spelling or grammar and will not be bothered with anyone doing the same to me.

O.K., I rambled a little there, but now I want to go back to the feeling repressed subject. Lately, I have been feeling like I am under a microscope and everything I say and do is under major scrutiny. I am nearly thirty years old, but because I do not own my own home, my fiancé and I have been dating for ten years and have not set a date, and because we do not have children, I feel like people treat me as if I am still sixteen years old and not old enough to know anything. In reality, when I comes to a large range of topics I have studied more than they and, I feel, I think more logically about these issues. I am not going to go into any great detail right now on any of this, mostly because I am tired and not in the mood, but eventually I hope to cover a laundry list of issues.

Well, that is the best of an introduction I think I do right now. It is 4:42 in the morning where I am and I should really go to bed. I will post my email in a separate post. Considering it is what got this whole thing started, I think I should post it before I post anything else.

Talisman