The audacity of some people.

This may sound petty but it really pissed me off. My boss called me at work today and actually asked me if he could borrow my lap top for the weekend. That is about the . . . well I don't even know what to call it. Who does that? It is not like he has asked for something that I almost never use or didn't cost me an arm and a leg. I am an grad student working maybe 2o hours a week for nothing (he should know he pays me). I don't have the money to buy another one if this one dies. And if he can replace it if it does then why doesn't he have his own. My life is on this thing. I take it everywhere. I went to a friend's house tonight where everyone was playing rock band and well I wasn't because that would never happen. I can sing but don't put an instrument in my hand. I am too uncoordinated for that. Anyways, I sat in the corner singing along to the songs I knew and working on a chapter for my second book. I don't think I would have ever finished my first one if it hadn't been for this thing. Ideas come to me like farts and if I am not in a position to write them down when they come I lose them. Of course I had to say no. Don't get me wrong I feel bad about telling him no because I one of those people who always tries to help everyone, but I could not let something this important to me go away for any length of time. I don't think I could even let my fiance borrow it for that long of a period. Now, my boss is all pouty like a three year old. When I first told him no he kept on begging, saying things like he really needed it because our business needed it. Well if our business needs it he needs to buy our business one. I got this one for like five hundred dollars. That is not cheap but it is cheaper than most that I have priced. Finally, to shut him up I told him I would have to think about it, then an hour or so later I emailed and told him no. Now get this, he actually emailed me back and said "I am sorry to. It is sad to know that we have gotten to the point that things are more important than people and relationships." OH MY GOD. Childish much. I could not believe it. I think I am going to have to quit my job. I don't want to but that is just ridiculous. If he is going to be like this every time I tell him no, then I cannot work for him. I mean grow up. It would be like if I called Candace or Annah or Wendy up and asked to take their cell phones or something equally important for four days. They love me but that is their life line to their kids and their husbands. They could not be without their cells for more than a few hours. Especially Candace because if she doesn't answer every hour on the hour when I call we have problems. No not really. I am kidding because she and I are always playing phone tag. It isn't like I am a selfish person. My youngest sister has my camera right now. I am not worried about it and when I need it again I will get it. But I don't use it everyday. I can live without it for a few days. I don't know maybe I am a bitch but I just did not feel right saying yes. I actually feel kind of uneasy that he would ask for it. I don't know but now I am all uncomfortable about going back to work and seeing and talking to him again. Maybe it is nothing but something feels off and odd about him asking and his reaction to my saying no.

Apparently I am bad at this.

Again it has been way too long since I have posted anything. It is probably a good thing that no one is actually reading this. Too much has happened in the last few months. Most of it bad. I will not depress you with all of it. Very little good has happened. The best of which is the fact that I finished my first novel back in April. Right now it is being passed around through my friends and family for editing. I have also sent out one query letter to the Paula Balzer Literary Agency. Grad - school was time consuming this past semester. I am surprised I was able to finish the novel. I have a thousand and one soap boxes I could jump on but for now I just wanted to post an update.

Talisman